because i believe
missing someone
is a good thing
the more you miss
the better it is
And the more you miss, the greater the love is ;he said.


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Sunday, September 30, 2007

leave it to faith.
Good things happen to those who waits.


my kakak's going off to Vietnam tmr. for i dunno wat sch trip. gees. for a week la sey. best kan. getta take the plane! *jealous* aha. gonna send her off to airport tmr at ard 11plus wit family? ya i guess. she'll be gg off by 2pm. sheesh. to see her packed, i think im gonna miss her laa. grr. yes of cos. she helped me alot in the house. the house chores. the u noe u noe. arguments? ha! got to bear wit those for a week. darn.
if only i can go. fly. to far far awayy. hmm. i really want to.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, September 28, 2007

girls day out<3 wit seha sirah and nadiah raman(:
it was superb! yes yes yes :D really did enjoyed ourselves. lagi2 nad ade. hehe! oh we miss her. ha! kecoh. the laughters we had. damn its greaat!(: been quite sometyms since we had this ehk. but yaa. we miss the other two. edduh and kinn! if only u girls were there(:
went to bugis and had QiJi for buke. well, we are lucky enough to get a table theree. other food restaurants were all packed by then. heh. after dinner, we walked tru Haji Lane. wanted to go for shisha. but tak jadi, too many ppl. ha! and sooo we camwhored!(: cant get enough of it la sey. until ard 9? we dcided to head to Geylang. ha! tsktsk. it was bloody packed la can. gees. so darn crowded. and i was asking the girls this "eh hari ni hari ape eh. asal mcm ramai gtu. lagi2 wit all this bdk2-baju semue" ha! serious sey. here and there, many were walking in groups wearing same tshirts, carrying same designed helmets,etc. even my bfs were out wit their Saujana members. heh. ok nvm. that was jus a random qn la(: K anw. we grab some foods at the bazaar. DENDENG and char kuays. urm yumms. and we walked and walked until we found a place to settle. u noe wher? EUNOS la can. damn its far. can feel the screw on my legs getting loose. ha! gees. ate our foods there. and and camwhored!! hehe. despite feeling so fatigue, we had dat lil energy to pose ard. hoho. took silly poses. - went off ard 11plus. ha! reached hme only at midnight. enjoy habisan eh. ha! ok enough said. here, some of the pictures taken(:

at Haji Lane. -continuous shot-

under i-dunno-which-block at Eunos

ok. thats bout it. just some random pics. must not reveal the rest. stupidity. hehe! well well. see those smiles on our faces? YES we had great tyms(: we sure did.
and psst! nad. you sure do like tat poof poof time ay. ha! only i noe, u noe, sira noe and definitely seha noe but no others sud noe ok! :D cheeers

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, September 27, 2007

Lost and FOUND!
SAKINAH, im so glad u found me sey. ha! i missed you laa. after so many years. gees. my so close fren back then. looking tru at the dairies i had long ago. yes yes, the books wit colourful pages, wrote wit colourful inks and stickers here and there. had frens wrote in there, their profiles and etc. and and! my World Top Best Fren was Sakinah la can! hahah. [ya ok kental] but so what. the fact is, we are that close la sey dulu. but now? sadly, i cant really recognise her! she changed alot. so so pretty! hehe. lucky her, she stil contacting some others. i dont. totally lost! haha. thanks to frensta, she found me! :D damn im happy.

she sent me our primary one class photo. my my. so berzamans laa. ha! K. look look! we are standing right infront togather! find us. haha. siak. skirt sikit nye panjang!? ;p
wanna see her now? [sorry darling. i curi ur pic. hehe!]
the purple one. pretty kan kan kan? gees.

siak uh. i miss my primary school life actually. the free and easy life. no need bothered wit so much problems. K ignored the part of being so kental lah. ha! stil, cute la sey. agree? haha. and hmm. the times wit late mum back then. gees.i miss it all. (:


AND I MISS MY BITCHICKS!
was suppose to meet the gfs today. at woodlands. nk buke togather. catch up wit one another. gees. but i cudnt make it. for some reasons. tsk. sorry k gfs. nxt tym, i'll make sure im there wit u ppl. i want pictures wit u girls! and girls talks. grrr. rinduuu~

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007

dinner at ama10 mcdonalds. wit sirah and darling aynn(:
its been quite sometimes since i had mcdonalds sey. seriously. the last one was before school hols? yaa. aha. kesian eh..kempunan. haha! KK. aynn was missing her bf so much and wanting to meet him[my eyecandy! :D] so yaa. give u chance chance la eh yin. bring u meet him. when opportunity comes. happy? haha! dengs. she was a sweetheart. but so crazy i tell you. can pecah perot la sey talking to her..non stop luffing. really. we talk practically about aniting. silly. aha. erm this was our first meet up right aynn and wat happen? haha. No No. aper aynn? long lost fren ehk. one year tak bertemu? ha! gees. serious shit la aynn! ape nii :D main main aje tau. kiss nak? ha!
"eh. u look diff ehk" [aynn]
"diff? like? haha. no diff laa(:" [me]
"there is..u look abit more tembam in pics. outside tak pulak"
"ha! ish. OooooK :D *malu* "
geees. and yes, i realised that too la sey. i mean, i look tembam in pics. not nice!

went off from mcd ard 1015pm. walked wit aynn to the mrt st. crap along the way. talked bout hr an hour?at the st. Yaa. we separated only at ard 1110pm? haha. cant haf enough of it. the talkings. the camwhoring. kecoh~
here, just some random pics. cannot put many many lah. too pretty kan aynn? haha!

aynn! stop it eh muke. last warning. slap nak? hehs!

you've really made my day sweetheart!(: with all the laughing. like i've known you for years. ehem. of cos we had. long lost fren kan! haha! ape la sngt ;p
meet u again soon oritee. friday? set? haha! shall ask eyecandy too? ha! cheers.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007

went over to yan's place. - buke wit the family(:
his umi, lil'sis dyla, yan and me only. maira was out. his dad wasnt hme[if he is, i wont even think to go over. haha!] his bro hus and gf came over too ard 730pm. :)nice ppl. yes, i do felt welcomed. i felt like one of them too. hehs. eventho yes, i was so segan habisan laa. ha! MALU(: dint do much talkings. manage to jus smilee. haaha. one very close family i can say. his umi can layan yan's silly talkings. dengs! cuteee. and dyla? just luffed -
:)thanks alot fer the dinner! best best
hoho. i still remembers how nervous i get before going over. thinking how it'll turns out there. anxious. hah! and guess wat!? suddenly i get so stupid laa today. i dunno wats up. i got the wrong bus to ubi can! geees. i saw 62, and board it. huh? nk gi mane sak jana?! *bang on the wall* bodoh kan? haha! pandai pandai je sey. was suppose to take 51, 55 or 25? ya. damn. so i get down and took a taxi. better stil, like tibe2 i ferget at which ave. ha! sheesh. fool. *slap forehead* =_= asked yan. and he was like "ave1 lah. tak tau2 lagi.." haha! darn. K maybe i was just too nervous i guess. ha! i shudnt haf tho. infact, it was ok(:(:
tv'ing wit them after dinner for sometimes. until ard 830pm, me and yan went off. his umi was like ".. balik cepat cepat. jgn melencong lak tempat lain. balik mesti kul12 tau .." ha! and yan goes "ah nk melencong dulu la ni" geram je. =D
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the bright light from the moon. the sea sparkles. Oh So Beautiful!
the breeze. the sounds of the waveS. I Loveeee


happy girl(:(:(:

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a shout out to hisham. HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!(:
cheers my fren! hehe.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, September 23, 2007

johor` wit family(:
out ard 10am. and it was raining cats and dogs la. super heavy. pouring hard. but as soon as we reached johor, no rain. lucky. nice(: - first trip was to the Giant. my kitchen needs top-ups. hehe. and seha get the ingredients to bake cookies. for raya. ha! ghairah habisan. umi tak lah se'kecoh nah tau seha nk uat kuih. ha! dengs. yaaa. next, we went to Angsana. walked around. was hoping to get any nice kebaye ther..but none caught my eye. hoho. ya. and by this time, we sistas were all worn-out. lagi2 the weather..damn. Blazing hot la can! tak bedek seh. even singapore isnt that feverish. sheesh. we were all dead beat after the walkings all. ha. and expecting to go bck after that..but nah. dad singgah at this car workshop. do some servicing. darn. bout 30min. den off. -
oh oh! we see it coming.. wat else. traffic jams! geees. its was scuzzy. motorists like tak sayang nyawe. the drivers were all impatients..cars and buses. damn. and surprisingly, on that unsafe road, there's a few truly-needy-ragged people walking in between lanes looking for any kind beings to radiate dem wit some cash. kesian can. tsk. dad gave to a few who passed our car. ha. -
k anw. yaa. because of the jam there, obviously we reached singapore behind time. we buke in the car la! haha. kecoh.
and mum dint bought much food for buke. cos we sistas planned to eat out actually. but yaa. tak menjadi. so we girls went to Hougang Point instead to haf our dinner(:
K here's some random pics we took. dint camwhored much laa. was too fatigued. -

we argued. we teased.
we look like we hated each other's presence.
but the fact is, we lovee. ha!

oh yaa! look at this. saw this pet shop in the mall. the animals were adorable. but sadly, dey look dying. well actually i think dey are. kesian gile la sey. the cages' dirty. animals like not taken care off well. damn. ekot kan hati, nk sue je la the shop. stupid inhuman ppl. gees. here, i manage to take the cats. and they werent as lively as they sud be! tsk

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, September 22, 2007

oh its saturday. gees. its weekend and ppl are gg out, having fun. ya? well, not for me tho - home - ha. had plans for today actually. ya since i've been staying home fer past days. but naah..decided not to. beat me, i dunno why too. gees. but watever. parents went to woodlands[for i dunno wat for],bought some foods for buke. and noe wat? dendeng! hehe. yes dey bought some deng2 for us!(: my parents noe their daughter well. ha! best.
tv'ing. frentering. online chatting. bloghoping. yadaa yadaa yadaa. ape lagi kan. thats wat i'll do at home, other than layan'ing my irritating lil sis. ha! and realised ive been blogging practically everyday? aha! thats explains.

gees. many of u may be wondering of why im giving excuses each time u were to ask me out right? and here i wrote im bored and all? ha. apologies. bkn tak sudi or sombong? ya. but ... sheesh. i myself dun haf the reasons too. *knock head hard* jus dun haf the mood to? ya thats it(: yes i still the happy outgoing girl. i laugh at the jokes. join in the fun. but there's just part of me that resist me of going further. prefer to stone and be alone(: ignoring whats happening around me. depressed. but i'll feel betta after some dazing. hmm(: even my irritating lil sis, hu forever wanna find fault or maybe jus playing, kept me accompanied. aha. her shoutings, toys, annoying actions. (:
well, hibernation wasnt bad afterall. really(: so what if it bothers me. im a strong girl. i rmbr my gfs telling me that. hehs. and i used to tell dem this- each time u felt troubled, dun frown. cry if u need to. but dun moaned over it for so long. baaaad. hehs. do this instead -
1.Give out a big sigh
2.breath in and out slowly
and
3.SMILE(: say Im Strong.
trust me, u'll feel betta. i do that. hehe. try it. (:(:

kinn darling. ur songs are sensitive to me now. hahs
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i haf plans fer the next three days. yay? tmr will be going Johor wit fams. and monday i haf a date(: tuesday too. hehs. the followings haf yet to plan. ha! anyone?(:



yes i feel the tensed. and i understand.
you've said it all. im filled.
and im ok. i will be.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, September 21, 2007

a big shout out to my youngest cousin HAPPY 7th BIRTHDAY HAKIM!!
and to his sister hu turns 16 on the 18th HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAZLEN!
hehe. i'll bring u two out nxt time ok.[as for hakim. if only he wud promise to behave. ha!] a treat maybe?(: sure. and faz! ape lagi.. dah legal fer pool kan. ha! joms arr. dah no need to hide2 kan :D ape la sngt eh.
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been hibernating at home. and its bad. geees.
the boredoms is killing meeeee. really!
i need a job. like real soon? =__=
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and its bothering me. so much! every single min. sheesh.
giving my mind a break. trying, at least. choose to believe in you.

:):)


`listen to the song. LISTEN

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, September 20, 2007

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007

fyra, remember we gfs talked about? on that last day of exam before the holidays. wanna change for the betta, slowly. the book we studied togather? hehs! really brings the smile each time i think of it(: and hey, remember u did remind me too, bout my late mum's presence in the house during this whole month? hmm(: yes i feel it. i missed her so dearly. each nite i'll feel accompanied by her. feel the warmth. which alas broke me to tears. i miss the tender love she wud give. the unlimited attention. the guidance. i had always been the one pampered. tsk. u noe, each time i feel troubled and helpless, i'll close my eyes and cried[ya, jannah gembeng! hah.] and talked to my mum. heart to heart that is.hugged my pillow like as if i getta hug her. hmm. and i'll feel good after that. gees. its like just yesterday. all that just vanished. i missed it all. really. tsk. now, im standing tall, independently. well, at least trying to. hmmm. and once, there's this another time, i felt that i haf that all again. from another great soul. hu gave me all those. all those i used to feel. oh niceee. But yet again, it just went away. i felt the greatness, i felt the lost too. again. terrible? of cos. its hard. well darling, im strong. and will always be(:
the song. the breeze. the ocean sings. really put me in deep daze. i feel it. and i missed it all. so much. and badly. you. i need you.

well, just a random post.
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`bitchicks, when nk meet. i miss u girls alr. beep me ok! soon pls!

`hey u. sorry for the ignorance and silence i've been giving.

and my niat nk gi terawih today tak kesampaian. gees. next week ok girls. insyaallah(:
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u noe imy too

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007

:D yess ar! i did it. heehe. overcomed tat fear[well,just a lil tho. ha!] and make it to gear 2. ha! yesss(: had a ride on yan's bike. and he forced me. to ride the bike myself wen we actually on the road. ya? where the cars, lorries, TAXIs, motors were at. wat? gile?? ha! obvious a NO from me la. geees. tak brani can. imagine a slight mistake i'll make .. booom! choy!! haha. - despite all the teachings, techniques and advises given,i still dun haf the courage to control tat machine. heh. yan geram la. ha! but he's determined and was patience enough to stil taught me how(: - and so, until we reached hg, my area, he handed over the bike to me. he's the pillion now. gees. yes, i was indeed nervous can. shaky. but yaaa. he was at the back, guided me. and i did it!(: still, i haf not meet his satisfactory yet la. ha! wants me to knock off my nervousness. grrr. well my dear i will make u proud. i'll try(: and next, to gear 3! and so on[hehe hopefully]. i'll prove to dem all.
thank you yan. continue teaching ok. i'll be the good student. ha!(:
AND for layan'ing me and kill the boredoms out of me. best! dengs!!(:(:

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went to geylang and get my Dendeng!(:(:

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, September 17, 2007

watched a malay drama 'Dilema Wanita' .. touching la. the lessons given and to follow. gees. nicee la. today, was on a daughter gg astray, and went far(pregnancy). she went away wit the bf, thinking he wud take the responsibilities. but nope. she was left. decided to go back to her mother, but wasnt accepted. she brought up the child herself. take a job as GRO in night club. yadaa yadaa. until one point, she realised her mistakes. went bck to look fer the mother. tried so hard fer fergiveness. never gave up. yadaa yadaa.. happy ending(: no love is deeper than the love from a mother to a child(:
To Err Is Human .
renung-renung kan lah.


psst! seha got difficulty to understand this. do you?
:D

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Sunday, September 16, 2007

agents outs` its was indeed great!(: really did enjoyed myself la.
fiq, asri and yan came down to my place to fetch me and sistas ard 5pm. set off den to geylang, and meet maria and bf. dey were dere early. hehs. bash came too not long aft. - buke at the kedai mkn at Joo Chiat. aft dinner, ape lagi, go jalan jalan (:(:
oh yeees. had my dendeng!(: hehe.
the weather wasnt pleasant tho. rains. gees. ya anw..and so we bought few foods from the bazaar, and walked some distance to lepaks. heh. and ape lagi, we camwhored laa! hehe. agents photo'session after so long. (:(:
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not long after, we dcided to leave the place. and headed to hg blk 671. hehe. a blk away from mine. fiq, asri, yan and we sistas. what else, lepaks lor. shared our foods, and hell ya we had a great time. laughed, joke around. and the trick seha taught us wit the cards. woowee. at last all of us got the tricks right(: hehs. well, maria and bf couldnt join us cos of time constraint. yaaa. and oh, we camwhored too(:
can u be more sononoh my dear yan? ha!
well. thats bout it. some random pics. hehe. pictures says it all. YES WE SURE DID ENJOYED OURSELVES(:(: see those smiles?? hehe. i want more of this ppl! pretty pls.

oh yaa. i getta take a ride on asri's bike. hehe. saper ajar naik motor ni? YAN!:D and anw. seha tompang me. down the carpark. scared? hell ya, she was sooo memekak can. her shouting made me go nervous and shaky. gees. i was like eh, can u shut up?! ha! had no helmets on, and eh i got no license yet laa. heh. tried to change to gear 2 but ... erm. went jerky a few times wen i did tried. geees. was frustrated la. couldnt get it right. im only gg at the speed of gear 1 only can =_= ha. nvm bfs.. nxt time. i will ok(: hehe. yes, mesti berani ok jannah!
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3:45am. oh no. betta get my sleep now. need to sahor later. poooft~

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Saturday, September 15, 2007

B O R E D O M s . - again, stayed at hme the whole day. did nothing else but tv'ing =_= geees. felt so lazy lazy laa. like babis. ha!! ya ya watever`
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gonna meet the agents tmr. oh my. so long since we had a proper gathering.
ya sure.. so looking forward fer it (:(: gg geylang. and buke'ing togather. yessha!(:
i want dengdeng!
anione gg geylang tmr? hehe. i see u guys there 'rite(:

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okok. im off.
meeting yan. and fiq. lepaks -


(:

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Friday, September 14, 2007

-nothing nice to update-
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HELLO!!

and

GOODBYE(:





`imysm .

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

no exams! over :D sure, im glad.
but not looking forward to noe the results tho. ha! seriously. yes i did tried my best..but no confidence of doing well. yaaa. ha. watever. doneee -

like i've said before, appetite wasnt good lately. u noe wat i had ytd? morning(went to school fer exam)had a lil of nad's ice milo. den in the afternoon(do revisions) drank only Oreo Choc Iceblend.. tats all. no meals. until today, woke up fer sahor, drank a cup of tea and a piece of bread only. hoho. first day of puase.. ha! alhamdullilah i can make it(: yes,was super thirty laa. ha! hungry? obviously. aha. hadta bear wit a moment of gastric. sick too. but yaa. im strong(: despite the weakness, i got tru the day. and yes, insyaallah the whole month. hehs. and and. been controlling watever thats coming out of my mouth la. the maki'ing. the gossips must stop. ha! kate org,bnyk bbual bnyk dosa. hehs. but yaa. tak sengaje always happen. and so we kept on going Astarghfirullah al'azim.. ha!!(:(:
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K. holidays. a long break laa. until 15th oct. grrr. need to be occupied with something. must. and i need a job. gonna look for one. right nad? we shall(:

i love my sis, izdihar(:(:
OK. so random. hehe



kesabaran sesuatu cabaran.
kebahagiaan sesuatu kemahuan.
kedamaian sesuatu yg dicari.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

morning morning morning (:(:

first thing first. to all muslims, slamat berpuase yer!(: lesen lah mulut, mata & telinga anda. kawal lah nafsu & kesabaran. hati-hati dengan kata-kata. dan walau sesibuk mane pun jangan tinggal kan ibadah. ha! ceh jannah bbual laa. gerams eh. mcm phm.

K. at last.. the last paper. Accounting. yessha(: wanna get it over and done wit. well, fer this term laa. ha! gotta bear wit another few more months until its really over. - at 531pm lata, im officially free! holidayss(:(: free from books. no more blaja'ing, revisions all. well at least fer the holidays la. ha! really need a break. my my. cant wait. and yes, i need a job. urgently. wanna get myself occupied. so gonna look for one. i must. any suggestions anione? heh.
k im off. wanna get ready to school. having a last min revisions in school. wth. to think mrs heng actually ask fer the last min revisions. =_= chiaoos!~
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someone pls tells me im ok.
must not frown.

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

tourism exam.
hard. erm well actually its kind of ok? i dunno. dammit. was seriously disappointed laa. yes,i did studied for it. studied hard enough to remember all the points given..the facts all. grr. was too much of it. had revision at mcdonalds since early morning till late nite ard 1am? ytd.. yaa. but wat?? during exams, i cudnt get antg right. i noe i knew the ans. but .... hmmm -
even before papers, i breakdown. was panicked a lil. all the things i studied before, jus fade away. was feeling seriously weak. in conclusion, i gave up half way through the paper. out of the hall earlier than expected time. damn - -

two down. one more to go.

im dead tired. anytime can doooown. seriously. so weak. so sick. maybe was jus over-studied? too pressurize wit exams. i dunno. hmm. and my mind was so distracted with that something else. keep on thinking. keep on appearing in mind. gawd. nomatter how hard i tried, it jus keeps on coming. i'll jus do antg to keep myself occupied,mind busy. haiz.
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feeling so helpless most of the time. my appetite changed. nomore food food food for me. yes, hungry. but no, tat wanna-vomit-feeling comes each time i hear "makan" ... no moods all. grrr. its happening again. haiz. well, watever it is, im still hanging on. yeah,i gotta be strong. must control. like wat others says, dun follow ur heart desires. not gonna let that overcomes me. hmm(:




dont wanna talk bout 11th.

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Monday, September 10, 2007

"eh how's the paper?"
"=) oh my dun ask .."


papers was erm.. ok? hard? yaaa. i noe how to do it, but i cant do it. ha! seriously. the qns are just so confusing la can.. and some formulas just slip away from mind. grrr. ntah la. no comments. watever..i did my best tho. its done. one down(: two more to go ):

at my place mcdonalds now. wat else, studying =_= sheesh. im like so tired laa. seriously sleepy. but hmm..the thought of still having more to complete revising really worries me. tourism paper on wed. so much to memorize. the facts all. grr. and accounting papers next, on thursday. damn. the formulas. hmm. i just cudnt stop thinking of the papers laaa.
h e l p. feeling so sick la. and i need tat medicine. so badly.
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waiting .

i dun wanna believe wat i think it is.
is there something i dunno tat i sud noe?

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

the day.

omg omg. its nearing laa. now at hme. the next thing i noe, i'll be in school,in the hall,wit the papers on the table. shucks. grrr. yes,im worried. so nervous. ha. woke up so early to do revisions. uhhuh. fer the last tym, before sitting for the papers lata. damn. the formulas. its playing ard in my head. trying hard to keep it there until the papers. ha! jannah stress la. ~
good luck to my gfs. and all sitting fer the papers. all the best ppl!(: mee too. ha! amin.
we can do it! erms, yes we can =X
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imy.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, September 09, 2007

been studying fer the past few days. and i really mean STUDY ok(: went down to amk mcdonalds. practically everyday =_= wit nad. do revisions, revisions and more revisions. grrr. i wan all this to end la. sooon! the exams. it really stressing me up la can. each day all i cud think of was to concentrate studying. ish. so not me la. hahs. - but too bad. some ppl jus dun wanna blieve i did took the effort to STUDY, to get tat good grades. hmm. ape nk buat kan. watever(: but yaa. really hoping to pass those exams la. took so much of my time. me and nad really striving hard to prove them wrong(:(: insyaallah. amin (:

im worried. fer the costing papers tmr. sheesh. so much to remember. the steps. the formulas. prayed hard my mind-block wont act. seriously. omg omg. like hello.. takot sey! like so cepat gtu kan. ha! grr. cudnt believe, tmr's the day.

im all tired now. head cocok'ing.(ha! wat a term to use ehk) .. wanted to continue revising. but yaa..too tired. my brain cudnt take it no more. humpft. bed's calling. hmm.
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wats wrong?
you aren't yourself.

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Friday, September 07, 2007

yes, was late this morning..to meet gfs at inter. and the accounting class of cos. expected. ha! was supposed to meet gfs ard 830am. but 'noe wat tym i reached? ard 915am la! gawd. so late laa. hehe. sorry gfs. wasnt intentionally tho..really(: ha. k. and the lesson, erm.. no comment. aha! me and nad wasnt concentrating at all la can. grrr. was like not in the mood to think of such early in the morning uh.. not even a pen was taken out of my bag la. ha! see how lazy i can be. heh. sit and just stare. =_=

K. after class, went to the dance studio to see the tarians getting ready fer performances lata. went off ard 1pm. heading to marina den. had lunch and lays ard. met mia too,after her werk. hang ard at milenia walk. had gfs talk - -
until ard 6pm, all went fer separate ways. fyra off to meet afnan. mia went home. me and nad went to amk mcdonalds..wat else,to do our revisions. ha. we just gotta be extra hardworking u seeee. exams are nearing laa. like 2more days?? oh my.
there's so much tat really need to cover. too much. to memorize all formulas and facts. damn. im getting so tensed up. can feel the pressure coming. argh. stress laaa~

tmr. dad wanna bring us sistas to johor to do some shopping. not sure wat. but no im not interested to. all i cud think now was jus my exams. i need to study. really study! after tmr, im left like one day before exam? oh my. so doooom~
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to MIA: i want you to be strong dear gf. i noe exctly wat you're going tru. remember wat we gfs talk bout ok. we are all behind u. you haf our support. just dun go astray. u noe wat i mean k gf. ingt2 la syarahan yg fyra dah beri tadi. ha! its not the end la. noe wat? i loveeee you gf! we all love you(:
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1230am.
k i wanna get my rest.
but not my bedtime yet. the beep! yesss. tunggu'in(:

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, September 06, 2007

self-proclaimed no-school-day.
hehe. ape la sngt. but no, i wont stay at hme or waste my tym doing other casual stuffs. had self-studies wit nad at mcdonalds amk just now. heh. did revions on costing and accounting. spent our time there since 4pm till ard 11pm? yaa. ha! imagine tat. 7hrs, doing all those revisions. rajin kaaaan?? hahah. dengs~ and yaa. the boys were werking. yan, cikkhai and fiq. not forgetting, shaf(: ahah. nad had great time kan nad! haha. ape tak nyee. yan wit his forever non-stop jokes. silly. hehs. well, sud thanks u guys fer layan'ing and entertain us both laa. kurang sikit our stress wit all the laughings(:

and oh ya. rmbr i said bout gg to mcdonalds ytd wit nad? yaa. yan and frens came down too lata ard 10+pm. dey studied too. rajin ppl. heh. nad and sis went off first, ard 11pm. cudnt stay longer, for the mother been giving non-stop calls. ha! - i stayed tho. joined the guys. but nah, i dint open my books. had enough of the revisions fer the night. brain dun wish to accept any info dah =_=
was there till like ard 145am. nearing 2am. yes, was tired..but nah i dun mind(: nice hanging out wit those guys laa. (:(:

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okok. its like 235am now. dengs! betta get my sleep. going fer extra accounting class tmr in school at 9am la. tsk. got the feeling i'll be late as usual. ha! damn.
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waiting fer the fone to beep!~
pooof~

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Wednesday, September 05, 2007

slpt late last night and yes, im late fer school(as usual) today. class at 8am la sey. not once early fer tat can(: hehe. anw, and yaa worksheetss. more of it today! yikes. how la sey. even stressier! haha! is there such word? =p yes lecturers u mean good, but its too much. wonder if i can complete all of them laaaa. and janna been so rajin to come fer accounting and costing classes nowadays. cehdebah:D
and neglecting tourism classes. geram je eh. haha. wonder if tats bad? haha. im concentrating more on those two topics je sey. gfs too. hmm. shall squeeze in some time fer tourism during self-studies ay nad. we shall do it!(: hehe

k. talking bout self-studies, yes im meeting her lata at 730pm? ahah. going to mcdonalds. must, yes we must do revisions. heh! and her sister,rafidah coming along too. woowee. :D
k wanna haf my dinner. chiao~

oh. and to tat lady. shut up. you talk crap, you noe?(:
go live in ur own world la. dumbass. you are lucky enough not to hear harsh words.

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you are the reason.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007

BIG SHOUT OUT TO MAIRA KARIM!!(:
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY ~
nk present?? mintak abg yan :D

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school ... damn. im like stress can. so much to catch up. grr. ah sape suroh tak blaja siang2, nk exam baru nk kanchiong kan janna. ha! damn. lecturers were practically giving off worksheets, worksheets and more worksheets..to be done for own pratices before exam next week. accounting too! waah. like, eh can i actually finish all?? haha! nad, we shall see eh :D hehe. gonna see her often this few days. self-study~

`out after school.
went fer moviee. Blood Brothers. and wth. i dun recommend you to watch that laa. grr. a chinese show. from the posters,we tot it wud be those fighting2 scenes.. but wth. it turns out like boring? starting je we nk fall aslp la can. ha! slow. and full of shooting! yikes. sadistic. they can just bang! the ppl right infront of them laaa. shoot here shoot there. brothers killing each other =_=
but yaa watever. had a good tyms tho(:
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im tired. and im like so worried fer my exams next week. shucks. if only there's remembering pills. and those specialize fer accounting students. ha! shall eat and wooweee. .... ok crap. pooof~

(:

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Monday, September 03, 2007

continue' ....

and yes, i went to school =_= aha. meet gfs at 12pm. and not only fyra and nad, but mia were ther too!(: gawd im so happy to see her can. hehe. like so hard to meet her nowadays. maklumlh busy kan.. hehe. yaa anws. mia joined us fer school la today! like, gg fer classes. haha. and she was nervously excited to go into the school.
1)she was wearing home clothes. so? hah.
2)dun wanna bump into her ... erms -
3)was scared to be shoo'ed by the lecturers.
after class, went to haf lunch at cafe1. hehe. mia misses the foods there. aww. and im like jelak'ing alr. grrrr. but yaa. we eat. we talk. we gossips. we joke ard. best!(: so long since we four gathered laa. hah. when will be the next one ay girls?

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to NAD: MC? ahah. no no. so leceh. and eh, if i dun wanna attend school pon, i dun need to present any MCs. dah bnyk kali uat keje gini. haha!

to MIA: darling. everyone haf their own explanations fer their doings. sit, and talk. im sure there's a way out of it. a good one? jus dun u wipe off those smiles away ok. be strong. be patience. and ay remember, semue ni mesti ade hikmah nye. hehe!(: u haf ur girls here. we'll be behind u nomatter what ok. <3 u!

ok. im off to do some revisions. really need to start mugging. pufft*
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wake up .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

morning morning morning sleepy heads!(:
oh my. so the cannot imagine that im up alr at this hr, blogging? grrr. ha! here, i tell u smtg. - was expecting to meet gfs at tamp inter, erm ard 930am lata? cos having lects at 10am. but ey, last min, dey msged and said, not gg fer the lects. meeting like at 130pm instead?? gerams je. i woke up like 7am? so can out at the right time, not to be late? y so early? cos i need to dry the wet hair. i took 1/2hr to 'makeups'. and an hour to be totally done,in uniform,hair done all. yadaa yadaa. and i gotta be out ard 45min before the meeting time cos the journey took like that long? ya. and wth can.. dey suggested to meet in the aftnoon? ha! sungguh best eh korgs. dush!* dengs la sngt. hoho.
and to think im gg school in the aftnoon?? damn. =_= obviously, im not into it. ha! lazy la can. grrr. now, im having the dun-feel-like-going mood. damn. ha! K. shall see lata :D and i'll update u peeps lata at night. ha!! oh my. im dead bored+LAZY. to go? or not to go? hmmmmm . . .

to be continue...

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Sunday, September 02, 2007

dint do much things since morning. was dead bored. - tv'ing. in out of the room. do laundries. lipat'ing bajuS. ate lunch. tv'ing . . . . darn. kill me~
hehs. until one kind soul save me from the boredom. oh thank you fren! hehe. out ard 4pm. went fer movie. Evan Almighty. yaa..it was ok uh. silly. and of cos, hilarious. ha. after movie, ard 9, and was suggested to watch another movie. ha! Suster Ngesot The Movie. that horror indon movie. oh my. no no! aha. the advertisement tells it all. sungguh seram can. ha! thanks, but no thanks(: nice of u. hehe. next tym maybe. well,den off to amk hub. yadaa yadaa yadaaaa :)

and ya. thats bout it. at hme now. wat else- tv'ing! aha!
thanks again ay' fren!(: at least im not rotting again at hme. hehe. cheers!

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Saturday, September 01, 2007

my saturday wasnt that interesting tho. stayed at hme the whole day. tv'ing. online'ing. and oh! karaoke'ing!(: ape la sngt eh. haha. so bosan laa. cudnt find antg to do. and eh, i miss tat lil irritating brat, my dear sis Izdihar. her kecohness. ha! away, balek kampong wit parents. cant wait for her return. and yes,at this moment i miss my dad! ha! noe y? i need $$ to shop laa. grr. ha! dengs. yaa. anw. - erm well, many asked me out. but nah.. dun haf the mood to. lazy too. (:(: maaf ye. rather be wit my sweet. bantal :D

kk. anws. here are the pics taken ytd. get them from nad and eeduh.
recap: fyra and nad met kinn + went fer lepak'ing at marina staircase + bowling.

look at those overjoyed smiles!(:
haha! nad u look retarded can. ha! at the arcade. while waiting to bowl'

at the marina staircase. while waiting fer our turn for bowling. ha. nad, eeduh and kinn cudnt get enough wit the cams!(:

bowling girls bowling!(:
not forgetting, the boys(: fiq,yan,aidil

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yes, we had so much fun togather. right girls? hehe. u bet!(:

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thats it. some random pics. theres more tho. hehe
cheers(:

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