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missing someone
is a good thing
the more you miss
the better it is
And the more you miss, the greater the love is ;he said.


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Saturday, January 27, 2007

yessshaaa~
SINGAPORE IN THE FINALS!!
=))

everione. each one of my frens all, off to the stadium to watch the
match. wanted to go but sometings caught up. so yaaa.
stayed at home. wit sirah and kakak. hurhur. watched tv the whole
dae. some boring shows and hindustan's. ha! and tat hindustan show
was a thrilling one i tell u..murder here and there.sirah was somehow
irritated wit me shouting (cos she get shocked herself wit my voice)
hehs! cudnt controll laaa. freaked out. ha!
anw ya.
den 750pm. woohoo. its tym. full attention to the tv. ha!
match match match- the stadium was super packed i can see. how i
wish i was there. but ya nvm. i did enjoyed myself at hme too. hehe
shoutingS. cheeringS. cursingS. ~ ~
the first half was quite a dissappoiment.. but it turns out well afta
the extra times tho. hees. niiiice =D
INDRA was superCUTE la. baihakhi's HOT. alamShah's handsome ~
hehs. wat a match. sattisfied. cheers fer singapore!

OH YA. fiza and daughter came over during the first half. ha! how
much i miss tat lil one. been so long laaa. myCUTIEpie. kisses-
seha came back hme at the extra time during the match. hehs. and
yaa. there we go. we gurls had fun tym cheering.( well shouting
actualli ) hehe. relieved. feel so great uh. =DD

well. tats bout it. wasnt dat bad after all. getta see my precious one.
enjoyed- ..kk. im off. handfone's beeping.-
am still smilling.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, January 26, 2007

- - -
had SBC meeting afta class todae. getta noe some of dem..not many
attended it tho. hehs. discussed bout the training camp and stuffs. and
wth..aidil make me be the secretary. a gurl hu supposed to haf dat post,
alwaes not attending meetings.. so yaaa. dey electing new ones. and
there, my name was called. ish.
aniway ...
meeting ended ard 3plus. went home straight. was dead tired laaa. fall
aslp in the bus. ha! sheeesh.
called boyfiee. asked me out, but had no idea of where to go. ha! silly.
was asked to get ready by 6. he'll come and pick me up at my place,than
there he'll think where we're heading to. gerams. POKE-
and so i did =)

140am.
believe it or not, the boys' now at my place~
bash, taufiq, asri and boyfiee.
well. i dint noe they were all coming down. damn. had my bath and
dinner, went into my room and went online. den suddenly i heard voices
outside. wat the.. ??
im so not ready to face anione laaa. wit shorts and so serabai hair. ha!
gerams. sorry boyfiee. i noe u're pissed wit me fer not showing myself.
hurhur. and to bash, asri, taufiq, im sorry too ehhh. hehe.
aiyaaa. dey're still in the living room, watching Prison Break's vcd. sighh.
and i havent been going out to even say HI. woops.

hehe. kk.
my eyes cannot angkat ready. blink2.
wonder wat tym dey'll be going off.
-get back to msn-
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, January 25, 2007

Bila hatiku sudah sayang
Bukan mudah nakku lupakan
Biarpun pedih dugaan
Relaku hadapi sayang

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007

oh gawdd.
IAC CA was fcuking hard laaa. the sectA was ok.. but sectB. wat the.
dun understand laa. not a single clue bout it. sheesh. =.=

long day. tiring.
k its obvious dat im lazy to say aniting. ha!


GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007

with great and true love,
comes great sacrifice

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

YA OKKK.
i've not been updating this fer like a week now? ha! yesss i noe. wth.
well. was kinda busy laa. no tym to blog. online? sometyms only. hehs.
-schools. everi single dae's packed wit IAC class testS..preparing fer the CA
which is tommorrow! woohoo. so hoping dat i can do it laa. managed to do
the class tests tho. hurhurr.
everidaes' the same laa. went to school..had extras lessons due to the CA.
went home late ard 6plus the latest? yaa. ha. boring..i noe.
blablablabla.
=p

went home wit boyfiee todae. sheesh. sick sick sick. had running nose jus
now. sigh. Boif.go see the doc pleasee. im like so dead worried fer u laa.to
see the condition dat u are in..especially dat nite. gawdd. i panic OK..mind
u, i cried~ ish. GO DOCTER laaaa. so degil.
. . . . .
kk. im off now.
my lil sis is irritating~
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007

like normal.
went fer IAC.. get back ytd's test paper. and guess wat?? i did it kinda
badly. ha! sectA was ok. but sectB was terrible! haaha. whole thing salah.
damn. had another one todae..and twas ok. i think i can do it laaa. easy?
yeaa. hehs. den went fer bcm. gawdd. dead boring la the lesson. zzzzz
had two hours break. sat at cafe1 fer anhour..den off to business blk lvl1.
chit chatting. wash-eyess. hehe =p
OH YA. saw noor~ woowee. cute. dah lama siaa menghilang. at last. hehs!
4yrs of frens. 4yrs in the same school, and class. my all tym best 'enemy'..
and and.. there's this 2boys from engineering course(first yr).. they're twins.
and guess wat. they had another sista of the same age! ha! cute huh. their
story are of the same as mine laa. born in the same year,but in diff month.
but their's, the twins came first, den the sista.. hehs! interesting. met wit
them a few tym jus now. =))

afta break. had bcm fer another hour.. but ha. someting caught up. u wudnt
wanna noe. ha! only the bitchicks noe y. so yaa..we dint turn up. but instead
we went to the MLC .. chat, bloghoping, etc.
had extra IAC lessons wit ms quah afta school. hehe. and heyyy. fer once, i
enjoyed going fer her class. dun wanna go off sia. ha!
went off ard 4? yaaa. den go hme.

=) dats it.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, January 15, 2007

BOoO~
hehe. its been sometyms since i last blog huh. almost a week?
yeaaa. busy busy busyyyy.
wit school. wit personal affairs. wit frens. blablablaa.
its either im too tired afta all those things i've been doing to actualli update
OR im jus lazy. plainly lazy. hehe. well aniway. so much haf been
happening dis few daes. beautiful ones. unexpected ones. so much to say
but ha! nahhh. not gonna say it all. L A Z Y -

wooo.
as usual. alwaes late fer class. skipping lessons. not concentrating. do silly
crazy stuffs in class. LA LA LA LA. hehs!
and ehh. mcm so tiba2 my social group of frens been multipled. wooo. wit all
the new faces smilling, saying HI. hoho. the feeling. SUPERwierd laaa. uhm.
hehs. adding on..not only poly students' stressed up wit assignments okk. ITEs
students too! grrr. wit projects and assignments to do. can be giler siaa.
test test test. gawdd. will be having my IAC CA next week.. and ms quah's
giving class test on everi single daes. damn~
and my eyecandiess. where haf u all gone to?? tsk.
not gonna be a good week i guess. boring -

11th jan. so attached wit dear yan~ muuuahs!! love u boif.
<3<3<3

ok. im tired.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007

. . . .
lastnite. t'was indeed the worst nite im having.. tsk.
tanx girlf fer listening and literally being there fer me. u've been
supporting me throughout. u noe wat and exactly how im feeling.
i love you maria.. i love you.
-cudnt make myself sleep lastnite. tossing and turning. teaaars.
it kept playing in my mind. tsk. pain. hurt.-

. . . .

wooo. woke up superlate laaaa. suppose to go out from home ard 7am.
u noe wat tym i get up? 630! wat the hell. ha! yess. i get up and rushed
myself. havock siaa. run around my house. ha! set my alarm at 430am.
but i dint hear a thing. tido mati siaa. haha. too tired i guess.slept ard
3am last nite. sheesh.

me,mia and nad. we skipped ALL our morning lessons. ha! yes BAD~
sat at cafe3 and slack around. talk talk taaalk. hehs. alot to catch up wit
dem. so much i dunno. hurhurr. well. fyra came at ard 12+ and joined us.
hehs. went fer class at 1pm till the last one at 4pm.
OH YA. at cafe3. saw this guy keep on looking at me. ha. of cos i jus
ignored laa.fyra went to get foods at the stalls and tat guy's fren came
up to her and asked fer my number. tat guy wanted to noe me. ha!! wth
funny. fyra was speechless. -
met HIM a few tyms in school. blinks and he's right there.

to HIM. tanx fer understanding, my dear..i meant watever i said in my
email yesterdae. u haf my words. be happy..i noe its hard. but try. hmm.
nomatter wat it is. remember im here. alwaes fer u ok. jus dun leave.


This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007

. . .
dint turn up fer school todae. reason? ha. u wudnt wanna noe. hehs.
well anw. get up early morning.. bathed eat and...went online~
haha. wat else huh. wen im at hme, computers are my best buddies.
hehs! bloghoping. frenstering. chaaaat.
some of the tyms were wit lil sis. played wit her,slp wit her,blablabla.
uh yesss u bet. wat a plain boring day im having. -
. . .
that one big step i've make.
ouch. ouch. and superOUCH.

i love my girlf MARIA ~
=''(


the worst nite im having.
t e a r s .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, January 08, 2007

245am. its late. and im blogging.
cudnt get myself to sleep. i dunno why. closed my eyes. trying hard..
but the next min it opens again. hurhur. many things up in mind.
realli bothers me. frown-
i get up and went online. wooo. many was still online la at this hour.
chatted wit like 8 of dem. and about 40+ still online. sheesh.
IMRAN. yes yes yes. i noe. im cute =)) haha!! so stop it already.im
flattered enough. and yaa dun worry. we'll meet in school ok. ha! cute.
chat chat chat .

k laa. tink i betta stop soon. my eyes dah mula blink2. im like typing
in the dark. head down so close to the keybord. hehs. need a lie down.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

school school school.
yesss. back at simei. hehs. was excited of coss. ~
new intake. school's packed wit students. new faces. noisy school. urhm.
even more lively? yeaaa indeed. hehe
well. weird day fer me i can say. macam suddenly i bnyk kenallans sia.
aniwhere, everiwhere i go..sure ader orangs tegor me. called my name.
waved. smiled. ha! and me? blur of cosss.manage to jus flash my smile.
paisey laaa. some i dun tink i kenal. opps =p
tanx to all i-dunno-who fer being so frenly and sorry fer being so lost
and blur. hehe.

my toyss. nadiah, mia and fyra. all busy wit bridge leader duties. hehs.
but nasib laa. nadiah accompanied me fer the two-hours lesson.or i'll be
dead bored in class alone seyy. TANX ROBOT. alwaes there fer me. hehs.
oh. dat old hag is still as naggy ~ hurhurr. me and nad had non-stop tym
luffing at her not-funny jokes. ha! and we talked throughout her lesson.
she naaaaag. and we ignore. hehe.
met fyra. hugged her. but she wasnt as cheerful. y darling?
met mia. hehe. wooo. was super excited laa! we wanted to shout each
other names..but we controlled of cos. many were around us. ha!
met zulmimi. cutes. hehe. said hi and all.talked. smile2. owww. melts*
but ehhhhh. i still cant find myKaya laa. looked around. but where. ish.
too many to notice la. hurhurr. nvm. there's tommorrow. ahaa
met wit many more. and seriously many. haha. niiiicee~

reached hme. get changed and meet sirah. wanted to go NYP. last min
plans tho. hehs. meet maria and seha afta their lessons. sat at the
canteen and dey did their assignments. me? help sirah wit hers and yes
mencuci mata. hehe. ard 430 we went up to the library and sat there.
continued wit their assignments. i daydreamed-
shahrul joined us ard 6plus. den yan came. den asri and bash. hehs.
surprised of coss. wasnt expecting yan asri N bash to come down. =))
off to canteen ard 8? i tink. had mc'donalds. hang around. --
went off ard 9plus. enjoyed.

k. dats my monday. well spend.
im off. wanna haf my dinner.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

HAPPY BURDAE TAUFIQ~
sorry i curik ur pic. hehee

so loving. sweet. and superCUTE. alwaes giving me ur mentel smiles. and
yess i missed it alot. hehs. well of cos. i wont ferget u laaa. ya promised.
we'll go out again somedays okk. jus beep -
hahs. happy2 on ur dae ok. takecare.see u ard in skool. miss miss miss u ~

e n j o y s ~
. . . .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, January 07, 2007

went to girlf's place wit the twins. ellaisha's at hme too. and shahrul's
there. hehs. all busy wit poly's assignments. stress-up.hurhurr. me?
watched tv wit ellaisha. walked around the house,kacau2 dem all.hehe
OH YAA. girlf baked fer us cupcakess. woowee.
TANX MARIA. supersweet of u laaa. t'was delicious of coss. soft. and
sweet. full of love . hehe

daddy pick us up at maria's place.. ard 1030. hehs! he wore tshirt
and kain jer siaaa. ha!! me and twins were giggling to ourself wen
we reach the car. hoho. =p
at hme. at the kitchen table. two boxes of pizzas. wooo. great.
=)) tanx papa.

so fulled now. hehs. k i wanna go mandi.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, January 06, 2007

sweetest day.
the beautiful S I N .
you and i.

loves~
=))

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, January 05, 2007

[at tante's place]

morning.
get up ard 11plus.. woo. slpt late last nite. ard 4am? yeaa. cant get
myself to slp uhh. dunno y. ha. bathed and went straight to my comp.
hurhurr. wat else..went online. bloghoping. frenstering. ha!
yesss. was bored laa. dunno wat to do. everione's out to school. lil'sis
was sick. cudnt play wit her laa. so ngade2.. hoho
afternoon.
kakak came back from school. asked me if i wanna go tante's place
to meet daughter. YES OF COS~ hehs! quickly. i get up and get changed.
well. ha! im here =)) so so miss dear daughter laaaa. but..urhm. poor
thing. daughter's sick. had ulcers in her mouth. somewher on her lips
i tink. hmm yaa. red lips. and she cudnt talk much. sheeesh.
cry cry cry. haiyoo. in pain i can see. lagi2 wen tante put medication
on her lip. superOUCH laaa. struggled and shouted fer help. tsktsk.
fer once. none can tahan her merengek-ness. ha! especially my cuzzin
fazlin. hoho. funny. =p
now. no noice. daughter's asleep. hehs. and im going home soon.
hehe. k den. dats all fer now.
GONE.


missing you so badly

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, January 04, 2007

* the pictures taken from 27th dec 2006-1st jan 2007 *

enjoys .



This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007

stayed at home the whole day. boredd. sistas all out to skool.
ha. yesss wat more. im stuck infront of the comp laaa. bloghoping.
chat chat chat. ahhhh. superbored ~
...
noone seems to understand me except my dearest girlf. babe i love
you gurl. u're dere to listen, to share tots. we're gg tru the same
thing. hmmm. im jus too weak darls. sigh. I LOVE U.

not feeling good. so down. wen will all this gonna end.
i wanna be happy. i wan dem to be happy. why is it so hard.
my mistakes. im sorry. to hurt anione of u..no i dun wan to.
me too sick and tired of it. i admit..im taking it abit too slow.
im soft and so weak to handle all dis. give me a break.

trust me. believe me. am trying my best. tsktsk ='((
...
there's more i wanna say. but..hmm. nvm. cannot tahan -
GONE .


run away. i want.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007

HELLO!! =))
yesss. im back alrite! wooooo. miss blogging. hehe.
been a long week. busybusy. ok. let me jus update wat i've been up
to fer the past few daes. hehs. gonna be one long entry alright.

26th dec.
aftnoon out wit dearest agents..w/o asri tho. he's away fer hols wit
fams. hehs. well anw..celebrated twins burfdae at amiran's grill. at
pahang st. somewher near arab st uh. ha! had wonderful tym there.
the place was superb. booked rooms there.. loves. agents under-one-
roof. alwaes wanted dat to happen. nice laaa.
daddy came ard 6 and took we gurls off. ha. saparated. OUCH*

27th dec.
reached kampong late morning. i ferget wat tym tho. hurhurr.-
all day watched tv, eat.. do nutin. ha! boring.

28th dec.
went off to perak wit fams and makwe(granny). ard 10+ i tink? hahs.
reached there ard 3+/4 like dat laa. hehs. and oh! we gurls called
the agents. used public fones. damn. its been long time since i needa
put coins in dat machine to call somebody. haha!
called girlf, yan, apis and taufiq(cannot be reached tho. ha!).
k. anw. overnite at mokteh's place. ha. dey stayed in a flat.. so yaa.it
was ok i guess. hehs. nite went out to haf dinner all. go pasar malam
and also went to the Menara Chondong. hurhurr. bynk mats. sheesh.
and and OH!! i getta ride mokteh's bike. hehe.
my sec2 cuzzy tot me how to. sheesh. she learnt to ride it since she
was in P5. ha! wanna noe wat?? seha ride it ferst, and flew!! hahaha.
wanna noe how dat happened? ask her la. ha! scary yet hilarious.

29th dec.
daddy asked wher we wanted to go. choices of either pulau pangkor
or cameron highland. ha! im the ferst to voice out "CAMERON!" =D
dah lama la tak gi.. so yaa. hehs. the journey..super long laa. and...
err. i dun like it. dint haf my breakfast uh. empty stomach. on the way
up to cameron, i vomited in the car. sheesh. dizzy and all. ha.
anw. overnite there. did some small shopping. get the agents some
souveniers. and yesss. we called them again afta dinner. hehe.
called girlf, yan, bash and taufiq(cudnt get tru yet again! haha) ..
happy of cos. miss dem lots laaa. like bertahun dah tak berjumpe. ha!!
parents and lil sis slept in one room, and we sistas in another. and
wats worst..we're saparated la. daddy on the 1st floor. us? on the 3rd!
hahs. BUT hey!! ni best. our room no. is C9! haha. damn. ha! ok.
maybe some of u wun noe y im like so xcited over it and all.. -
tot of calling Cnine .. but cudnt find the time to. hmm. nvm. ha.
ya anw. the weather there was ok laa. no rain. jus windy. and YES t'was
super cold laa. the toilet floor's freezing. ha!

30th dec.
morning had breakfast den off to strawberry farms and bee farm.
the bees. gawdd. i freak out wen it flew near me laa. the bunyi. ish~
and oh yaa. we found the banglow we used to stay in, the last tym we
were there. ha! oww. how much i miss dat place. memories. =)
k. aftnoon.singgah Pangkor Island. bought some souveniers for agents. den went back to perak, to pokde's place(my uncle's) ..overnite
there. funn. its been long since i've met all my cuzzins there. hehs.
played games wit them. monopoly and all. ha! kecohs.
slept at ard 12am.

31th dec.
get up early morning and get ready to go back to melaka, kampong.
huggs. salams all makciks pakciks and cuzzins. ha! wonder wen i'll go
there again. hurhurr.
long journey. reached kampong and im like so dead tired (eventho im
not the one driving. ha!) ..tired laa. all the way in the car =p
wooo. the next day's new year! and wher were we?? ahhhh! we sud be
in spore celebrating it seyy~ sheeesh.
nite. went out wit kakak,the twins and two of my cuzzins. wanted to
see the new year atmosphere there. but ehhh..super lame la! hah! ish.
called the agents. YES xcited ofcoss. ahhhh. jealous laa. the guys actualli
went to maria's place and had mini celebration there. argh.bluek!
ok anw. went hme ard 1plus in the morning. all tired.

1st jan.
woke up ard 8am.. woowee. the happiest moment. the day i've been
waiting. ha!! singaporeeee. =D
went off ard 10plus. singgah afew places along the wayy. hehs. reached
here ard 6plus? i tink. yeaa. and heyy IM BACK~
miss my daughter laaa. tsk. wanted to go tante's place. but she wasnt
around. go johor. geraaams.

todae.
out wit agents. so miss dem laaa.
me and seha the last one to reached uh. ha. met girlf and her bf, sirah,
fazlen, yan, taufiq, asri and his girl?(i dunno) at pacific plaza. den went
to fareast..dey ate. walkwalk..bash cam lata. den off to milenia walk.
our usual place. hehs. hang ard. niceeee.
the gurls started skool tommorrow. hoho. needa be hme earlyy. =)
off to carefour at suntec ard 8plus..acc maria, wanted to get some
bakery stuffs. hehs. walk the whole place to find the stuffs laa. aiyoo.
reached hme ard 10plus. dad bising oredyy. hoho.
well anw. ehhh. i had fun laa ppl.. mwaaahs! huggs.

k im off. tired laa. i'll upload the pictures soon okk.
daaaaaar~
GONE.


loving you more each day .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.