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the more you miss
the better it is
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

heyyy~
im going off to malaysia todae. dis afternoon.
yepp. sheeesh. sighh. actualli we've made plans and surprises fer the
twins todae. had hard tyms talking to daddy last nite. but.. ha.
well.. anw. HAPPY BURFDAE SEHA & SIRAH!!
going out to meet the agents lata.. realli needa see dem before we leave.
SIGH. wanted to meet HIM. but..... hmm. nvm. -
will be going back to kampong ferst.. den maybe to perak wit my
families there to my uncle's place. hmm. worried. the floods. =S
coming back i tink on the 2nd jan? yeaaa. hmm. long huh. 1wk. damn.

gonna miss all of u here of cos.
my AGENTS. my baboon toy & robot.MY DAUGHTER. my dear frens.
HIM. i love u ppl truck loads. wish me safe okkk =)

HIM. im so sorry to haf made dat decision. realli hope everitin's gonna
be as fine wen i return ok. will never i ferget u. sweet memories left fer
me. no regrets. i love u
.....
k denn. gotta get ready now.
daaaar~ kisses.
GONE.


`i love u my dearie

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, December 24, 2006

at tante's place .
went online .. bored. daughter asleep. hmm

k. yesterdae.. afta going compass point, went back to tante's place.
brought daughter along.. so yaa. gotta send her back to tante. hahs.
went off ard 1030pm? yeaa. wanted to go home and rest. tired.
but... ha! when we're walking to the bus stop, kakak said we're gonna
drop by to fadly's chalet at ECP. gawdd. im dead lazy laaa. arhh. but
wat to do. haha. fadly's been pastering us to go. ha. he came fer any
of our pits and chalets.. now our turn. hehs
ya. reached ecp ard 11plus. woooo. wonder why..ramai siaaa.
anw. the people there.. nice. frenly. hehs. fun people laaa.
OH i met wit some people whom i tink look somehow wit the ones i
knew before. hahs.
someone looked like pakdin. (cnine's fren)
someone looked like my kuzin from perak. funni ass. alwaes finding
the chance to videotape me. gerams.
someone looked like hisham. ha! onli the hair diff uh. abit shorter.
someone looked like taufiq rabbit.
sheeesh. wat the hell .
kk. btw.. these people. each tym dey did this gathering, they wud
alwaes do this- scare their frens wen they were sleeping. idiots~ haha
tat night. one of them dressed as a pochong! wat the hell laaa. super
scary laaa. dey make-up and all. white face. dark eyes. wooo. damn.
ha! it turns out well uh. dey manage to scare the ones sleeping. haha!!
dangerous. but.. ha! aiyooo. macam2 la dis ppl. =p
k. went off ard 6am. darn sleepy. my kakak had stomach cramps. so
yaa. we gotta leave fast. took taxi home.
one crazy night .

todae. sistas asked me out. ha! no tanx la ehh. tired+damn lazy. ((:
k. im off. late. going home. toodles.
GONE.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, December 23, 2006

HAPPY 20th BURFDAE SHAHRUL!!
hehe. u were blushing wen we sang u burfdae song ytd. cutes.

[at tante's place.]
was tired. but still.. i merajinkan diri to siap and all and come here. jus
to see my dear daughter. hehs. been a few daes laaa. so the rindu =p

k now.
yesterdae. the day we all went for the band concert at confrence hall.
sirah's performing. playing the clarinet. ha.
the guys were smartly dressed. the gurls? suweeeet. hehe
k. yan and taufiq came to hougang and parked their motor at my blk
carpark. put their helmets at my house..den off we go to yio chu kang
togata wit fazlin, to meet maria and boyfie there. ha! seha was pissed
laaa. we went out from hse ard 545? hehs. late. was suppose to meet
her somewher but cancelled. oppps.
k. meet up wit TOK(baz) and girlf, farah at tanjong pagar stn.
farah- frenly. sweet. easy to talk to. nice noeing u gurl.. loves.
ya. anw.. from there, walked to confrence hall togata. meet seha there.
passed the tickets and all.. soon, we're in there watching. err. wasnt dat
good laa. but yaa nice. damn. stared at the flutist. sheesh. how much i
miss playing one. ahhh. i sooo miss my flute la~
saw haikal up at the stage. ha! boy,i miss u laaaa! cudnt stop smilling
seeing him up there. i dunno why. ha! i noee... silly. bluek~
wooo. HAIKAL.. i miss u la. u owe me a movie. u said it. hehe

afta the performance.. went to Lau Pa Sat to eat. den go somewher.
i dunno wher.. haha! somewhere near raffles stn? yeaaa. camwhoring.
woohoo. handsome boyfrens + pretty babes ~
baz, farah and asri went home ferst.. catch their last train. well. the rest?
haha. we went to look fer night rider.. and i tell u. its fucking hard laa. we
went to look at nearby busstops..no NR laa. damn. soon. we dcided to
walk till marina cntre there. whoaaah. imagine tat. we walked from Lau
Pa Sat to Esplanade. sheeesh.
long ride home. reached hougang ard 1plus goin 2. stopped at hg pt. den
walked hme. hehs. surprised..baz and asri were under my blk! haha.
cutes. dey were waiting fer yan and taufiq. haha! silly guyss.
well. step into the house at 205am. woooo. late huh. =p
T I R E D ~
so love the night. the day. enjoyed. =))

asri. went off fer holidae todae. haf a safe trip orite dearest. takecare!!
....
k laa. my daughter needs me. and im goin to compass point lata.
hehe. TAAAAA~
gone-


i love dat guy (:

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, December 21, 2006

dead tired.
for once, im like so sick of shopping laaa. ha!

yesterdae. went to bugis wit seha, sirah, maria, ellaisha and kakak.
walk the whole bugis street till ard 7plus? yeaaa. wanna look fer shirts
and all fer tommorrow's concert at confrence hall.
todae? morning, go school fer revision.. den went hme, put my stuffs,
eat..and again, bugis~ sheesh. needa shop fer last min stuffs. get seha
a brown cardigon. maria's flipflop. earings. a green retro top. ha.
but now wit kakak onli. the gurls malas nk ekot. gerams.
supertired laa. walked the whole street jus to find wat we actualli wanted.
worst. the place was packed~ ha! jana dun like it laaaa. grrr.
k. done shopping ard 8plus. took train to yio chu kang. sorry kakak..
asked her to go hme ferst instead. gotta meet yan there. and maria too.
needa passed her the flipflop. hehs.
went to parkway parade. accompanied yan to eat.. went off ard 10? ya..

oh! yan bought havanas slippers and crumplers for the twins.
sweeeet~

kk. im off. need my rest. toodles =)
GONE-

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006

raining cats and dogs.
woooo. non-stop siaa. wanted to go out.. but the weather. ha. thinked
twice. so yaa. stayed at hme till aftnoon. daughter came to my hse ard
4plus. her mum hadta leave her here, cos wanted to go fer job interview.
hehs. me? was online and stuffs.. but....wen daughter came, i gotta stop
everiting. she cried.. melalak mcm kene pukol siaa. hahs. yesss my job
to shoosh her. =)
sori to my frens online i tak layan.. daughter needs me. hmm
yan. im totally sorry ..

ard 6plus..went down to nenek hse. tante was there. ha. needa leave
daughter wit tante tonite.. her mum will be werking till tmr morning.. so
yaaa. went hme ard 8plus? yepp. as usual. went online... bloghoping (:
bump into HER blog. read all the entries.. oh myy. how much i wanted
to say sorry to her. i understand how she feels. how hurting it is fer her.
hmm. she's innocent .
to her. im truly sorry my dear. me too..dun want it to turn out dis way.
dint expect u ppl wud come here. hmm. and all this happens. gawdd.
u're one sweet girl. im glad i getta noe u.. well... i hope everitin will go
bck the way u alwaes wanted..one dae. hmm. sacrifice i wud .
again im sorry k dearie.

now. still online.. superbored~ dunno wat to do.
tired. sleepy. but cudnt get myself to slp.. hmmm. thinking -

GONE .



love ?


This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, December 18, 2006

heyyyy .
=)) was supposed to go back melaka dis morning. but its cancelled.
hehs. happi laa. me and sistas been tinking howta actualli tell dad
dat we dun wanna go. ha! morning, dad came to my room and said
we're not going. fuuuuh* relieved.
hmm. well. umi wasnt in the mood i can see. tunjok perangai oredy.
ha! watever to her. dun bother.
dead tired afta the long dae ytd at wldlnds, rewang'ing. fun actualli.
new people. new frens. notty TOK played wit water and all. ish dirty.
ha. oh. aidil's cute ~ winks.

k. todae. wanted to go bugis wit seha, sirah, fazlin and ellaisha..
meeting maria and bofiee afta their movie. BUT..cancelled. ha.
the movie starts late. we gurls dun wanna be hme late. so yaaa.
instead. we went to compass point..den to kovan. ha. wanted to
look fer sirah's shirt fer her performance dis fri.. walk walk -
reached hme ard 8. bathed. went online.
he wanted to meet me..but its raining heavily. so yaa. decided not
to. nxt tym den .....

im off. wanna haf my chocolate fudge~
hehe. GONE -


c o n f u s e d .
help me please


This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, December 17, 2006

my SWEET LOVABLE daughter =)
fiza's daughter.
-arfa darwisha-

she simply LOVE cats~


she LOVE me ((:
my daughter.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, December 16, 2006

went bugis wit seha, sira, kakak, fazlin, maria and daughter~
hehs. yesss. we brought her along. sheeesh. its was ok at first.
but afta long, she starts to merengek.. adooi. tak bleh tahan.
hahs. dun wanna walk.. put her down? ha! she'll make noises.
bugis was super packed laaa. and its super hot. ishh. carried
daughter wit me from home till bugis. wooo. tiring seyy. wat
to do kann..she dun wanna go wit the other gurls. prefer me. =)
she slept half way wen we're walking at bugis street.. sirah carried
her..kakak hadta fan her. ha! leceh huh.
afta sometyms, went somewhere to sit and haf a rest.. wooo.
and daughter woke up. worst, she starts crying. wonder why.
the gurls tried comforting her but none manage to shoosh her.
so yaaa. i took daughter fer a walk and comfort her.. hehs! yes
she stopped~ fuuuuh *
k. went off ard 7plus i tink..den went to my nenek hse. wanted
to leave daughter wit tante. daughter's mum finished work at 11.
but...hehs. decided to takecare of her till her mum finish. easier
uhh. nearer to their hse. (:
went hme.. played wit daughter... layan izdihar. hehs. supertired
laaa. daughter refuses to slp and forever sticking wit me. so yaaa.
played till 12plus, until we get the call from her mum. seha sirah
slpt first. sheesh. hehs. oh yaa. izdihar's kinda jealous to see us
layan'ing daughter. ha!

now. back from sending daughter to her mum =)
gawd. so dead tired. k i wanna haf my beauty slp -
GONE

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, December 15, 2006

booo~
again, im at tante's house now.. hahs. well.. i'll be here more often
uh. wana see my daughter u see (:
leave her wit sistas while i blog dis fast. hehs.

k. woke up late.. ard 630? yaaa. ha. was suppose to be out by 7 uh.
1/2 an hour to get reddy? damn. rushed like hell siaa. hahaa
had to be in school ard 8 to do our roleplay.. but we reached ard
830? hahaa. well.. aniway we did good fer it laa. the lecturer was
pleased wit it. fuuuuh * smile.
applause to mia, nad, fyra, mardhiah and me!

fyra was rushing fer her dance laa. supernervous i can see.
went to the dance studio wit her and some other malay dancers.
erms. ha. i make-up fer her.. ceh ceh janaa. hehe. winks.
fyraa. u look gorgeous darling.. how's the performance? update!
k. pillay and azri came to look fer us at the dance studio. hehs. idiots.
dey brought plastic guns wit them.. ish. nuisance. ha! pillay kept
aiming those bullets at us gurls. damnnn. pain siaaa. at the butt seyy.
BLUEK~

went home. get changed and went off here.. hehee.
go compass point.. den to playground wit daughter.. haha
k dats bout it =)
im off .. daughter's calling. hehe
GONE-


If you love someone, Let him go.
If he returns, he belongs to you.
If he does not, it was never meant to be.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Thursday, December 14, 2006

heyy. (=

now at tante's house. ha. went here straight afta school ended.
yesss. wanted to see my daughter of cos. hehee
sorry mia dint wait fer u until the meeting ends. tired uhh. ha

wooo. supertired laaa. one long boring day in school.. and now?
need to layan my daughter.. notty girl. been so ngade-ngade
dis few daes laa. wants people to carry her all the tyms. put her
down and she'll go "uhh. ahhhh. uh uh" cry-
yesss. gave her all my attentions. adoooi. tired laa.
hahaa. but watever it is.. I LOVE HER (:

to meira.
im sorry my dear.. but hmm. please explain. stay close.
...
k laa. im off. gotta layan my daughter back. gave her to my sis to
takecare jus now, while i blog. ha! bluek~
ok. toodles. my daughter needs me :)


hmmm. its getting more complicated from wat i can imagine..
im clueless. im lost. all i can say is im sorry.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006

...
ponteng school todae. hahs. too tired to get up. slpt at ard 3 ytd..
cudnt make myself slp. all i tink is hmmm. nvm .
k. woke up, bathe den go online.. bloghoping .
oh yaa. bhai. ur words. ur concern. tanx sugar.. im ok. u dun worry
orite. =)
"In the crying game, laughter is the best medicine.. but not
to cry is inhuman.."

ok now. hmm. it happens again~
was bloghoping and Dat Song was played...andd. TEET. my fone
beep. a msg from him. i was like (0_0) speechless.
why is it alwaes happen? Dat Song.. hmm .
he told me..indirectly tho. glad? well.. at least abit. hmm .
missed .
im alwaes happy wen you are .
...
5plus. went off to meet sirah, taufiq and yan at kuzin's place at
sengkang.. wanted to see my daughter. but .. ha. reached there, my
aunt wasnt home. dey went johor and not back yet. sheeesh. so yaa.
sat under the blk wit them.. chit-chat. seha came soon afta dat ..
ard 730. finally they're back..hehs. me, seha, sirah run to get my
daughter. ha! we look so stupid laa. superchildish. =p
played wit her .. daughter's scared of yan and taufiq. ha! tak boleh
pandang siaa. confirm bising nyerr. heees.
urm. sorry guys if im not as lively as i usually am..wasnt myself. err.
my mind .. im alwaes tinking of urm. hmm. nvm shall not say it. ha.
wen u guys sang Dat Song. i jus hafta walk away.. was about to cry.
but i controlled. ha. see 'my idiot' i managed to. hmm (:

now im home. listening to Dat Song. and he called. erghh.
AGAIN IT HAPPENS . ishhh. =I
but im ok. hmm i am .. sigh. ok. im off. GONE -


im sorry dat i love him .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006

im sorry "my idiot" .
hmm. each tym i talk to u on the fone.. i'll end up crying.
sheesh. im sorry. its so hard fer me. to ferget. to make
him a stranger.. but tanx.. tanx alot. ur words. ur concern.
kisses .*

to HIM.
why. why must you do dat to me . tsktskk.
='I



ok. its late. im off.
crying silently.

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, December 11, 2006

=)
went to tante's hse to see my daughter. hehee. yepp now tante's
taking care of her while the mother went fer werk.
was raining heavily laa. and im like so wet and my hair.. ish. by
the tym i reached sengkang.. (0_0) ha!!
my daughter's mother finished werk at 6plus. waited till 7plus-8
den went off. as usual, dint went home straight laa. hang ard and
chit-chat.. played wit adk. supercute. she's so inlove wit cats!
wenever she sees one, she'll go "ket! ket!" hahaha. "cat"
sat under the blk.. behind hisham's blk. hmm. got the urge to msg
him. but... ha. nvm -
ok. i did one bloody stupid thing. arghhh. i carried adk, placed her
beside me.. we shared the seat. of coss i hold on to her laa. but
at one moment, i let go my hand to take someting on the table..
den.... boom! she fell. damn. im like supershock siaaa. she move2
and slip. and worst.. she's so bloody light dat she flip and fall on
her head ferst! OUCH. can hear the thud. gawddd.
she cry cry and cry.. the mother calm her down, gv her milk and all.
ha. im like speechless laa. ishh. ha. carried, and took her fer a walk.
woooo. janaaa. SLAP~
went off ard 9plus.. walked under his blk. hmmm.
where is he ?

S I L E N T S .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, December 10, 2006


This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

12.22am
hmm. was trying hard to sleep.. alwaes tinking of urm... hmm.
dat song. keep on huming it.. anddd. TEEET* HE called.
gawdd. hate? but erghh. how much i miss his voice. sheesh.
we talk. errr. and luffed. ok. the best part is, its not even dat
funny laa. watever he says, i'll ans and followed wit luffters. =I
happy? why am i luffing seyy .. hmm

1056am. HE called agaaain. =I
dint talk much laa. i was busy. we talk..we luff. and he said
he'll call me back . SIGH *

ok. anw.. hadta go fer kendarat at pasir ris. ha! coincidently,
musa was there laa! isssh. he werk at the back, cuci pinggan!
haaha. irritating. keep on looking. disturb and all. humph.
supertiring siaa. hadta keep a lookout fer empty dirty plates.
yuckss. hah. stand the whole dae. and now my legs mintak kene
picit reddy. LOL.
reached home ard 6plus.. den out again, to meet my daughters.
hahs. miss dem laa. saw me from far, shout like nobody business
siaa. jump here and there. cutes.
played at the playground behind hisham's blk.. hmm.
ok. gonna post my daughters pictures soon okk. adorable ahhhh.
=)

fucking exhausted. im off-

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, December 09, 2006

HAPPY BURFDAE dear ASRI~
went to meet the agents to celebrate asri's 18th burfdae. sweet.
yan, baz, asri, taufiq, seha, sirah and maria..
went to town ferst wit seha, to meet maria and sirah dere.. look
fer some stuffs. den off to marina to eat(burger king) and hang
around, wait fer the boys to come. kinda long laa. was superbored.
gossiping all the wayy. ha!
oh yaa. alep called while we're at BK. was talking bout him uhh.
dennn. ha!! so random.
meet baz and asri at mac. den went to esplanade to meet yan..
taufiq came lataa. met him at millenia walk.. hehs. nice laa. we sing.
we talk. we luff. camwhoring =))
OH YAA. asri get his wishh. ehemm * ..hehe.

mia. nadiah. fyra.
GURLS! so sorry i cant make it todae k..
was suppose to meet them to discuss BCM roleplay at fyra's place.
but yaaa. i dint turn up. sorry bitchicks~
huggs.


ok laa. dats it. im tireddd.
gone-

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, December 08, 2006

MAHLIGAIMU DARI AIRMATAKU

Izinkan diri ku meluahkan rasa
Maafkanlah aku andai kau terasa
Biar ku paparkan apa yang terjadi
Moga engkau tak ulangi

Sungguh tak ku sangka kau berpaling tadah
Setelah lamanya menjalinkan cinta
Dalam diam-diam kau sudah berpunya
Tanpa aku menyedari semuanya

Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia
Bersama si dia insan yang kau suka
Percintaan kita tak sampai ke mana
Setakat di bibir saja sayang

Kau bina mahligai dari air mata
Yang jatuh berderai di wajah sepi ku
Hancurnya hatiku bisa tak terkata
Terhumban rasa diri ku

Oh aduhai ku masih ingati
Janji manis dan saat romantis
Kau pinta ku supaya setia
Akhirnya kau yang berubah

Oh Tuhan ku tabahkan hati ku
Temukan ku dengan ketenangan
Jiwa ini dibelasah rindu tetapi apa daya ku

Ku cuba pejam mata tapi tak terlena
Kerana ku masih teringat pada mu
Begitu payahnya nak ku melupakan
Pernahkah engkau fikirkan oh sayang



its hard .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006

im online . msn chatting + on the fone wit MY sweet IDIOT
okkkk. OMG. wat the hell laaa.
was listening to Dat Song . hmm and and.....HE SIGNED IN~
was bloody shocked uh. so fcuking coincident siaaa.
erghh. i dunno why but.. yesss. i cried . =''I
sorry My Idiot. i cudnt control.
hmm. well. we chat and ask normal questions uh. blablabla *
he asked me to send malay songs. and i asked wat song. he said
"lagu yang dulu dat tym wen i tok to u on the fone tu" ='S
Haruskah Kita Berpisah - he sang it to me. sighhh
ok. and i send afew more songs uh.
*Hampa
*Mahligaimu Dari Airmataku
*Kita ditakdir berpisah
*Sayangku
*Usah Lepaskan
*Kenangan Terindah
*Bila kau kata kau sayang
*Jangan Menangis Sayang
*Alasanmu
*Sekelip mata kau berubah

erghh. dint he get the hint thereeee.
im off. cannot tahan. fuckk
=''(

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.

todae we're early! hahaa. =p
well.. actualli we're late laaa. reached school ard 830. but heng ahhh.
first lesson was cancelled. ha! so yaa.. hang ard at cafe one and went
fer lecture at 9. heh.
fyra: "oh ya. janna.i sang this song and its so remind me bout hisham"
i was like..WAT? sing it. hmm. and she did. yessss. it does. totalli .
MAHLIGAIMU DARI AIRMATAKU.
i went speechless. and the song's now forever in my head. gawdd.
holding back -

went fer lecture.
den iac.. ha! ms quah was smilling wen we wanted to enter the class.
ha!! bitchicks were all there, early! hehee
ok. studied. wasnt realli concentrating laa... half of my mind was
somewher else. hmm. chit-chatt wit bitchicks.. and wth siaaa. was
tinking bout him..talked bout him.. mentioned his name.. and.....
TEEET! my fone beep.
gawddd. its him! yet again. i grab mia's hand. erghh. act. i talk and
luffed along wit him.. shut my eyes, tryin to hold back my tears.
"ohhh. dah ader matair, tak nk layan i laa"
ahhhh. i started crying. humph. i said it back to him and he go ga-ga.
why dint he still wanna tell me seyy. the truth. i jus need the truth.
hmmm.
mia, nad and fyra calm me down.talk things out.. and somehow mia
and fyra were affected too, and dey cried. sighh *

k. den went fer bcm, at the lab.
did nuting..went online. chatting.. bloghopping.
bitchicks' sensitive to jiwang songs. listen to it and will start crying
=.=

school ended and i called him. he ask me to.
stupid .



Dat song .
it really meant ALOT

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006

hahaa. as usual.. went to school late.
was 1/2 an hour late fer iac.
no nagging. ms quah get use to it reddy i guess. ha!!

k. den went fer bcm.
gawddd. horrible laaa .
wasnt concentrating at all. my mind was somewher else. hmm
chit-chatting wit the bitchicks bout 'something'.. and...... ='(
hmm. cudnt hold it back. it hurts. so badly. saddd.
tanx bitches fer comforting me. sigh *

went fer break.
fyra and nadiah had a short meeting wit some of the BLs. me and mia
sat wit lanPeng, ahHeng and pillay.. talk talk.
was thinking, was mentioning bout him.. and... TEEET! my fone beep.
wth. its him! ..heard his voice and i grab mia's hand. holding back my
tears. ouchh. i acted.. luffed along wit him. erghh. sigh *
pillay concerned. wanted to hold my hands instead. awwww. tanx uncle.
k. den nad and fyra came and joined us. we shared our foods.. me wit
nad, fyra wit mia. haha. chit-chat, joke around.. andd.... fyra. suddenly
broke to tears. yess of cos we panicked.ha. calm her down. pillay hugged
her.. well she managed to stop tho. relax darlingg. ish.
he's not worth ur tears .
OH! and this is the funny part.. hehe. we were all gg back to class.
wanted to go up the escalator and saw fyra's idiot. ha! wat more, fyra
turned and ran awayyy. hide -
mia was 1/4 way up the escalator, she ran down.
i was 1/2 way up the escalator, i ran down.
pillay was 3/4 up the escalator, he ran down.
nad was already way up the escalator, she went down.
by the tym nad reach below, we were already bringing fyra back.. and
we were luffing our lungs out! funny laa. HA!
fyra by then wasnt crying.. instead, she luffed heartily. hehee
=p


difficult.
im trying so hardd .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Monday, December 04, 2006

......

went to school wit mia and nadiah.. hehe. as usual, we're late fer iac
class. ha! lessons starts at 10am. but heyy.. we were 10mins earlier
than our usual timing okkk. =p
reached class at 1020am.
afta iac, had our lunch at cafe one.. pillay joined us. oh. and his frens
were superIrritating laaa. monsters~
hehs. denn azri joined us. crazy monkeyy. haha. wit pillay and azri
around, u wun stop luffing laa. ha!
slacked around till 230 .. den off to Tampiness Mall .

fyra bought a mini silverish crown fer her lil cuzzie.. sweet .
OH. and i said something silly.. errm. well. stupid.. ha!
k. im alwaes been disturbed by the gurls.. and i'll alwaes complained it
to nadiah. my sweet robot =)
anww. i wanted to say "robot! see! they bullying me!" .
and wth.instead,i said "robot! see! they BULU-ing me!"
HAHA. tersasul siaaa. maluu.
hehs. kk. denn we went to toys 'R' us.. ha! omgg. the toyss. wooo. ha!
starts playing wit each of every toys theree. hahaa. deprieved
childhood. hehe
yan came in awhile lata. i dint noe siaa. was looking at this kids' makeup
kits. yan was along standing behind me.. i turn and.... ha!
nasib i dint melatar siaa. or else so burok! haha.
went off ard 5plus i tink. whoahhh. the weather. bloody HOT laa.

reached home. put my bag down and followed my sistas to meet kakak's
fren, fizah.. played wit her daughters. SUPERcute laaaa~
hehs. went up and down the playground .. wooo. yet again.
deprieved childhood . haa!



my idiot.
sweet of u.. muuaahs~

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Sunday, December 03, 2006

stupid shit .

why ??
why mus it turns out to be this way.
why dint you tell me.
im so hurt.
fuckk. pls stop these tears ..

humphh. need explanations.
FAST~

k. im goin out..alone. so the cannot tahan .
gone-

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Saturday, December 02, 2006

wooooi .

sooo dead tired .
k. went to the beach wit mia, nad and fyra.. wanted to do our project
discussions. and errr.. to cry our woes out. everione of us wasnt realli
in the mood dis whole week. hmmm.
urm yaa.. anw. met azri, pillay, anita, leena, bala and afiq there. hahs
joined them.
sat at the waterbreaker. hmm. tanx bitchicks fer being there wit me
ladies. love u all laaaa~
hugggs.

den.. ard 6plus went to meet twins and maria. joining the agents fer our
picnic and stuffs. ha. waited fer the bois at mc'donalds to take us to the
venue. its like at the fucking far end of the beach laaa.. near the bedok
jetty. hah. we cun possibly walk there uhhh. so yaaa.
dear AGENTS. had so so much fun wit u ppl laaa. especially my TOK.
jahaaaat. pinch poke slaaaaap~
hehe.
well. yess i may dissapear at tyms. sat in the tent alone. ha. but nahh..
dun worri. im ok (: jus need my tym alone.
watever it is.. seriously, i had fun aite. muacks muackss *



suddenly.
i miss itu orang . tsktsk

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.
Friday, December 01, 2006

haf no fucking mood to blog .

basically.
having SW at 9am.. but we bitchicks dint turn up. instead we sat at cafe1
and had breakfast. denn.. went fer bcm in the lab. did nuting..went online.
ha! chatted wit the bitches hu were sitting at the tables besides me. we
dint speak a word out. but u'll see each of us giggling to the comp. yesss i
noe. SILLY . ha!
dint turn up fer iac tho. and im so positive dat she's totalli mad at we gurls
laaa. alwaes us. giving her the most headaches. ha!!
went to cafe1 again.. slack ard. soon pillay came. so glad dat he join us. or
i'll be the onli one crapping at the table, entertaining the gurls . haha!
pillay. funny monkeyyy. non-stop jokes. hehs!
fyra dearr. the jokes and luffs. dun take it to heart orite. we love u laa babes.
our penguin toy . =)

hmmm. k dats all. not in the mood
i need my bitchickss .
gone-



it hurts.
badly .

This pain in my head escaped from the heart.